Reconnecting with the Quran
I'm having a baby!
26/08/2025, 4.18 pm
Today marks my 24th week of pregnancy. Pregnancy has been...interesting so far. We found out exactly 9 days after the day that I was supposed to get my period. We both cried (lol), mostly because we were afraid of the future, whether we'll be able to become good parents, whether we'll be able to provide for our baby comfortably. But despite all of our fears, we were so so happy.
The first 8 weeks was okay, almost zero pregnancy sickness. However, all hell breaks loose on 9th week lol. I even threw up in the car on my way to work. Habis kena baju, tudung, pintu kereta and all. I can't even turn on the radio or else I'll barf. After the first barf incident I straight away bought a bin just for me to throw up in the car. The pregnancy sickness kind of(?) starting to go away at week 20, but I'll still occasionally throw up whenever I eat something 'berangin' like some Malays call it, anything spicy, anything oily and the list goes on and on and on... And don't get me started on the heartburns that I get everyday. We've spent hundreds on antacids alone! But I didn't mind all that. All I really want is a healthy and happy baby 😊
We found out our baby's gender, and it's a boy! I found out during my monthly detailed scan at 16 weeks -- My baby needs frequent detailed scan because of my SLE, my antibodies could cross the placenta, interfering with the heart's system, inflammation etc and affect my baby's heart. However, during last week's detailed scan, the specialist was able to find all 4 chambers of my baby's heart, and reassured me that it's highly unlikely that my baby will develop any heart block at this point onwards. Alhamdulillah!
However, not so good news, I was told that my baby is smaller than his actual age. It actually scared me and I'm still hoping that my baby will grow healthily physically and mentally, aamiin. We'll see my baby's progress in another 3 weeks.
I wasn't intending on writing a blog post on this but I was studying on how to store EBM...and suddenly I'm writing here haha. I'm so happy now Ya Allah, I can't believe I've come this far.
Can't wait to meet you and see you grow my little one 💓
Happy
07/01/2025, 1.15p.m
Hello there.
It's been 4 years since my last post. A lot has changed. By a lot, I mean A LOT. I'm someone's wife now. I'm scared to show the world how happy I am, but I am the happiest I have ever been. Kinda funny how my last post was about how worried I was on not having a soulmate because I have a chronic disease. But indeed, God is the greatest. I was gifted with a man that accepted me for who I am.
We got engaged after almost 2 years of knowing each other on 17/02/2024. How did we met? Yang tahu je tahu 🙈 It was a bit hectic preparing for the engagement because the decision was made last minute but we were able to make it happen.
Nine months after, I got married to the love of my life on 02/11/2024. I planned the whole wedding myself, phew. The way I was mentally scarred... I don't want to elaborate on that yet because the whole process kind of traumatized me but thankfully I had Luqman and he was so supportive throughout the whole process. Might make a separate post about the whole thing but we'll see...
My husband, Luqman, is the kindest, sweetest soul. He doesn't raise his voice when he's angry, he takes care of me, makes me feel safe, the safest I've ever felt since I was little. I finally have someone I can rely on to now. Words can't even make up how grateful I am to have known & loved him.
I am just happy.