Skin problems

Wednesday, 22 March 2017, 8:52 p.m.

          Okay so this is a quick update about my skin condition right now. My skin is suddenly breaking out, for several reasons. First, I tried 3 new products after I stopped using DNARS day cream for sensitive skin. The reason I stopped buying it because it has harmful ingredients for our skin. So I bought the Garnier toner, I forgot the name because I already gave it to my friend, the colour of the bottle is yellow. It didn't suit my skin because the formula is milky, and my skin is oily. So whenever I apply it, my skin feels sticky and it's just plain disgusting, really. And the second product that I bought was Himalaya Almond and Cucumber Peel-Off Mask, also caused my skin to have a little reaction, small pimples here and there. And the third product was a face scrub from EverSoft. I'm not gonna assume that this was the cause of my acne breakout but it didn't help it become better either. I also read that apricot face scrubs are too harsh for your face, it might break the moisture barrier of your skin. That's probably it because my skin continued to freak out after that.

           After a few weeks, few cystic acne starts to come out. First, a few on my forehead. Then, my eyebrows got attacked with a bunch of em. Tragic. Hurts like hell too. And then this one week, last month to be exact, I started to over-consume cheese because my parents bought a lot haha (regretting it). I don't usually take dairy-based products because I don't like milk, they're nasty. I also don't usually eat dairy chocolate so my body totally freaked out after I consumed a lot of cheese. So, I tried a few products here and there.

          First I bought Aiken toner and moisturizer. I didn't really like the toner because IT FREAKING STINGS MY SMOL EYES. The moisturizer was okay, am still using it. Nothing really changed but it gives a decent moisture to my oily skin so that's good. Probably not gonna repurchase it though. And then I started consuming vitamin C, got it from Watsons, RM29.90 for 60 tablets. SOUR AF. But my black-ish scars are starting to fade slowly. Definitely going to repurchase. And then I stopped using D'Herbs' Papaya Soap because I think it's also doing no good for my skin. And I stopped washing my face for a while and I used honey as a face wash.

         So three days ago I bought a local drugstore face wash, called Safi Oxywhite. I wasn't planning on buying it though, I was just looking for a mild face wash since I feel disgusted for not washing my face. Icky. And then there's this promoter (old lady so I felt bad lol ignoring her), she was kinda pushing me to buy this face wash so i thought why not. It's for the oily and acne-prone skin formula. And after using for 3 days, the small bumps on my right side of my face is getting smaller. I don't see any changes on the cystic acne but I wasn't expecting anything either. I also bought a clay mask from Nana, a friend of mine. I do feel like the mask was doing a good job at removing extra sebum in my pores so thumbs up for that. So that's all. I'm just gonna finish these 3 products and probably do an update after 2 months. Bye bye

Wherever I go

Tuesday, 21st March 2017, 6:32 p.m.

           Hi!! I'm back again with another post. This is my second post for this year since nothing much happened to me lol sorry for being such a boring person. So I got my full STPM result, which was 3.17. I got A(4.0) for BM, A-(3.67) for History, B(3.0) for General Studies and C(2.0) for Business (booooo!!). It was okay I guess, but probably not good enough for the tough courses *cough* law *cough*. My results qualifies me to apply law at UiTM, UniSZA and UUM, but I'm not sure if I'll ever get a call because the I'm pretty sure there'll be a pretty tough competition with other students from all around Malaysia. Other than law, I also applied for English Linguistics and International Relationship. Some people looked down upon me because the courses that I applied wasn't prestigious enough I guess (also my result wasn't that great, at least not for them.)? But I'm not gonna let it mess with my decisions. I know what I'm doing for my own future, and I'm gonna shape it the way that I want it to be.

          Last week I went to Ipoh to visit my grandparents. To be frank, it was boring, but I'm glad that I was able to help my grandparents while I was there. Fourth day of staying in Ipoh, I couldn't take it anymore so I had to book an online bus ticket so I could go back to Temerloh on Saturday. I'm an ass, really. But I was really sad when I left. If I had someone to teman me there, I'd probably stay longer, honestly. Maybe next time I'll come with someone else and stay a little longer. Now I miss my hometown😭.

          Also, life has been hard on me lately. I don't really talk about it with people because I don't think anyone would truly understand, or care. I deal with it alone, I take lessons from it, I learn to control my thoughts and anger, and I strive to be a better person. But most of the time, I only cut people out of my life. I just couldn't deal with any nonsense anymore. I shouldnt do it, I should probably tolerate people more but it has been too much lately. Why dont I talk about it? Too personal, I guess. The more that I grow up, what I know is the only people that wouldn't leave my sorry ass is my family. I can't fake a smile, I suck at it the most. I dont take crap from people anymore and my life hasn't been better.

I don't know what to write about anymore because most of my thoughts are usually there but when I start to write they all disappear smh. Till next time!